Casia is now eight weeks old and completely alert and smiling more than anything. The last two months have had more changes than I ever thought possible. Adjusting to life with a new born is hard and no one can ever prepare you for the sleepless nights and tears for no reason. But there is something so special about it just being the two of us in the middle of the night, lights dim and just her beautiful eyes looking up at me while I feed her.
The sleepless nights at times have been torturous, people always say that you’ll be tired when she’s here but I never really got how tired you’d be until now. Sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball and sleep all day but that isn’t something that I can do anymore. Instead I get up three times a night, change nappies, make bottles, do feeds and constantly clean up sick but you know what, I’m completely okay with that! Her little smile and the way she looks at me makes it all better. Relationships change when your baby is here and I can defiantly agree with that. You have so much less time for just you and your partner, to even just talk on the sofa or cuddle up and watch a film. You can start to do it and hear a little cry or a nappy needs changing. But the time that you do get to spend as just the two of you, I think you treasure it so much more than you used to. Even if it’s getting to eat your dinner without a baby on your lap and having a conversation with an adult in “adult voice” rather than talking all day in “baby talk”.
There are so many new things that you get to experience on a day to day basis and its beautiful. Every little smile and every little walk just the two of you is lovely. It’s hard when your partner goes back to work and you single handily have to do everything. I think it’s so important to get out of the house everyday because I for one know it can get lonely just sitting inside all day with a sleeping baby. I love to go for a walk around the park and grab a hot chocolate. I try and see my friends and family as much as possible. But then again I absolutely love a lazy snuggly day on the sofa in our pj’s and day time TV.Life with Casia is amazing and so is motherhood and I can’t wait to watch you learn and grow even more!